Pensiamento - Chapter 13

Refrain from Defending your Reputation or Intentions
So if anyone should tell you that a particular person has spoken critically of you, don't bother with excuses of defenses. Just smile and reply, 'I guess that person doesn't know about my other faults. Otherwise he wouldn't have mentioned only these'.

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Pensiamento - Chapter 12

Pay No Attention to Things That Don't Concern You
Don't be concerned with other people's impression of you.
They are dazzled and deluded by appearences.
Stick with your purpose.
This alone will strengthen your will and give your life coherence.
Focus not on what other people does,
but on keeping to your higher purpose.
Your own purpose should seek harmony with nature itself.
Let other people behaves as they well-
that is not within your control anyway, and thus is of no concern to you.

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Pensiamento - Chapter 11

Our world rates wealth over courage, comfort over commitment.
We think that nothing will ever disturb our lives.
We are surprised when people get sick and die.
We think that technology can fix everything.
We take our safety for granted.
We have more degrees but less sense.
We have more medicine but less wellness.
We've added years to life, not life to years.
We build everything bigger, but not neccessarily better.
We have more convenience but less time.
We have more communication but less understanding.
We make heroes out of actors but have no idea who the real heroes are.

*Personal Note:
"i will take care of you forever".

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Pensamiento - Chapter 10

Events Themselves Are Impersonal & Indifferent

When considering the future, remember that all situations unfold as they do regardless of how we feel about them. Our hopes and fears sway us, not the events themselves. But to seek out the opportunity in situations requires a great deal of courage, for most people around you’ll persist in interpreting events in the grossest terms; success or failures, good or bad, right or wrong. These simplistic, polarized categories obscure more creative and useful interpretations of events that are far more advantages and interesting.

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Pensamiento - Chapter 9

No Shame, No Blame
If it is our feelings about things that torment us rather than the things themselves, it follow that blaming others is silly. Let us never place the blame on others but on our own attitudes.

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Pensamiento - Chapter 8

The world greatest level of bio-diversity actually sits on the land with the least amount of ecological nutrients. Ironic huh...
It is said that the organism living in less nutrified land actually makes out more bio-diversity, because the lack of nutrients and resources actually forces the organism to work hand-in-hand relying on each other to survive.
And these organism and their ecosystem bores the riches amount of beuatiful bio-system- The Amazon

In understanding the laws and reaction of nature, i saw the beautiful, enduring and strength in the creatures and beings build by nature.
Their ability to adapt to even the harshest condition on earth.
So what makes us think we do not have the ability to live, survive and even excel in these tough condition.
But like nature, we learn to work together, and create our own beautiful "habitat".

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Pensamiento - Chapter 7

Nature teaches us so many things. Yet many a times we totally miss the lesson in the midst of running through our so call "meaningful" lives.

In nature, lightning could strike by travelling through miles of distance from the cloud to the earth, while an open circuit has no electricty passing through the circut.

Lightning occurs when the electron particles charge up, and when the charge is ready given the right circumstances, it jumps from cloud to land.

How do we learn something from it?

In life, we face many obstacles, like the "open switch".
But it is up to us to "charge" ourselves up, and face it.
Overcoming the obstacles with our best of ability.
Many a times, it also requires some help, assistant and guidance (circumstances)
But most importantly, it is the ability to FACE UP to the challenge, the obstacle that will finally allow us to JUMP across.

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Pensamiento - Chapter 6

Keep your head up and in
You are your greatest motivator and consultant.
Believe your system.

Follow it 100%.
Go for it fully.
Have Confident.
Do your best.

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Pensamiento - Chapter 5

I so want to help the people around me. Yet sometimes when they say "i'm lazy" or "i dunno" i feel helpless as well. When you have the heart and experience to give, sometimes it is a frustrating emotion to see that they do not want to fight their way out of their own turmoil.

However i also understand that it is their own personal choice to help themselves. i can only help show the road. the path is still theirs to take.

Have you ever have the same experience? Care to Share here....

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Pensamiento - Chapter 4

Love is such a mysterious phenomenon.
It enhances human spirit, allows one to live a healthy life.
It brings out the great characteristics, like courage, determination etc
It allow one to live our life with absolute faith and hope.
It gives us so much strength that, limitations and boudaries are broken.

Yet it also drives people to the egde of insanity
It gives us the greatest pain and suffering.
It allow us to feel the un-Love side of humanity=(
It brings about getting-what-you "love" in-whatever-means-possible.

How do we manage love? Or can we even manage it?

Let our sight lay out.
Let our voice lay low.
Let our scent lay light.
Let our senses lay peaceful.
Take a deep breathe.
Embrace our surrounding.
We are already there......

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Pensamiento - Chapter 3

Where hard work IS a talent.
When people nowadays are rating intelligence, athletism and leadership as a talent.
There is still one talent, unrecognised as much in our society.

HARD WORK.

One man can have no skill, no ability, no nothing.
But if he has a will to work hard.
To make the effort to better himself.
I say, "Ain't that one valuable talent"
"Ain't we suppose to encourage that to our kids, our world. "

We live in a place where short-cuts to success are most glorified.
Where Success are glorified.
What about Hard work? What about Effort? What about the Journey?

Hard work... something that has vanguish with the rise of our arrogance.

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Pensamiento - Chapter 2

Death ends a life, not a relationship

We face with much confusion, misery, sorrow when face with death. Even the hardest soul neutralise in the realm of it. It is one event in life, that we never understood.

When people leave us, it is their physicality that leave us, the relationship we share, remains. The legacy they live in our heart remains. We never really lost them. Our love still remains, forever with us.

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Pensamiento - Chapter 1

The quality of the tea is just the reflection of the quality of the mind of the individual tasting it.

Much as we deem the quality of the events in our life as unpleasant, in fact it is just the poor quallity of our mind.

Our quality of thoughts actually define the way our life will be.

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Pensamiento(Spanish for Thoughts)- Intro

Every once in a while there will be thoughts, idea, and creativity in our mind. Waiting to be release in expounding fashion. Sometimes, due to fear and societal constriction we hold back. Feeling guilty at some of them. Feeling they are wrong.

Well for now on this is where, we can rid of fears, constriction and all the factors who hold us back in expressing this powerful inner realm in us, PENSAMIENTO.

Leave your name you want to enable me to recognise you.

CHECK

Family. CHECK!
Army. CHECK!
AMG. CHECK!
CTSS-pals. CHECK!
JJC-pals. CHECK!
Liverpool. CHECK!
Academic. CHECK!
Sports. CHECK!
Finance. erm...CHECK!
Relationship. FAIL! (lol.. haha)
Life. CHECK!

An 8am-6pm eye-powered army life on weekdays till 3June2009(End of Course).
With the two pathetic weekend-day to enjoy with my friends and family.
Keeping myself fit and adrenaline pumped with sporting activity,
Running, gyming, basketball-ing, soccer-ing, and of course liverpool watching.
The begining of another A level journey, this time "privately".
All this with a budgeting plan. Hahaha. LEARNING TO SAVE MONEY.

Romantically, i fail. haha. still no proper relationship match-able to the jolene-days (not comparing or trying to patch back). Continue exploring...

peacefully "confined" life. Lol.

Oh yeah, haven got a single letter for my univ-A-rsity application. Must be my S grade making an A-SS out of my prospect. Haha. The Agony of anticipating will be over once, the "thank-you-for-ur-application- BUT..." letter comes. Then it'll be start of another journey.

Deh La Pan Deh.
(wadeva that is lol my childhood language)

Smiling. Humouring. Plus-ing.

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Fallen Twig

The dark icy chill
batter the twigs of
the lonely trees
wrapping it with
layers after layers
of cold ice.

Swaying and cracking
The twigs stumbled
Snapping and breaking
The ground dents

An end to its lonely suffering

written in army, for someone the poem will never reach.

I'll Never Give Up

darren "kushev"

Path

H1 General Paper: C
H1 Geography : B
H1 Project Work : B
H2 Physic : C
H2 Mathematic : B
H2 ECONMOICS: S !!!!

What a way to end my 2 years in jjc. Failing one subject which in retrospective may hinder me to enter the FASS courses of my choice.

Its frustrating and shocking at 1st glance.

I've never fail a subject in major exam. Never. This is the 1st time.

Annoying feeling there.

Should i retake in school or in private?

Pursue my dreams?

Take courses i can go into conventionally?

Plenty of questions go through my mind.

Dream

Goal

Failure

Success

Friends
Family

Teachers

Mentors

Things that matter most to me.

BUT

It is the deep thinking, soul-searching, self-reflecting part of me, which have always been undermined by many, that stood out to help me on this journey.
Failure in this Test is nothing compared with those i face in basketball, simply because i put my heart and soul for those games, and not this exam.

The pain is far more bearable.

The only problem is the social fabrication around us.

That results and certificate matters to a large extent.

Well

For me to put in my heart and soul to work for something is success

There is a sense of purpose and accomplishment

Nothing beats that

It is not a matter of achieving the goal,

it is the effort, actions and heart put into trying to achieve.

I know we have many skeptical people who do not see the light in this word.

If only u could see what i've seen in my short years of life.

The smile from an old man sitting on a tattered wheel chair.

The cheers from children who have no material possesions at all.

The grim looks on many individual faces when they go to work.

The stress on many individual faces when things don't go their way.

This is just a small piece of the puzzle which formed my picture of life.

L

Life is amazing.

How one man little joy can inspire anothers dream in life.

This fall is now over

Cause i've stood up

My dreams assured.

My style vindicated.

Private Quek

I'll Never Give Up

Last of Last

When all is down. When there is no support.
Thats where u got to give yourself one more try.
Give yourself hope.

When the chips are down.
We have to pick ourselves up,
with determination and spirit,
or we will falter like the rest.

Not everyone can be different from the rest but i know i can.
Amist the harshest critics, i will not give up.
Amist depthless loneliness, i will not give up.
Amist the toughest failure, i will not give up.

This is my word to you people who doubt me, I WILL NOT GIVE UP.
This is my life,
i will run it my way,
darren's way,
no other way.


Army time.... Recruit Quek Reporting for duty.